I was accused of something I did not. Truly, I had no part of it.
Because I wanted to be completely understood, I asked specific questions to see if what I think is the same what he thinks.
I explained that it was a total misunderstanding. He did not believe a single word I was saying.
I figured there’s no point, and also my blood is now pumping at a rate which is not healthy.
I moved away. Physically yes, but not mentally. Here’s how it went in my head.
“ How could he? Even after all my explanations? Does he think I am a liar? So, he could only see this incident? And why he cannot see I would not do such a thing “
It is fun to be the right person in my head. But my blood is still on high speed.
I remembered an advise from a book and sat down. Closed my eyes and quietly slid in to meditation for about 10 minutes.
“May I be well, May all beings be well”
Then a smile crossed my troubled face.
“ How could I ? Even after all good things he did ? Do I think he’s useless ? So, I can only see this incident ? And why I cannot see I am capable of useless judgments on him?”
Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned